ME
Hi! My name is Klein. I am 18 years old. A third year BA Public Administration student at the University of the Philippines Diliman.
I love watching movies - Hollywood and even Korean.
I love basketball as a sport but I don't play, i just watch and cheer.
I enjoy watching shows like F.R.I.E.N.D.S, Will and Grace, Stacked, Grey's Anatomy, Desperate Housewives and reality shows like Amazing Race and Survivor.
Chocolates are my favorite comfort food - they make me happy whenever I'm lonely.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
feels like sh*t...
i posted something here more than a month ago pa. the reason probably is that, every time i open blogger, my mind is always blank. can't think of anything good to write. i always loose my train of though kaya i've decided na wag na lang muna magsulat.well, a lot has happened since then. SC and Pagdu elections. My Birthday. Deadline ng Feasib. Final Exams, etc. I have been so exhausted these past few days. like today, i had my panpil17 exam this morning at 9-ish, i studies up until 4am and woke up at 6am. talk about lack of sleep. I was feeling mixed emotions today, primarily because of the sleep factor. then i go to the internship orientation and find out that they put me in an agency where i don't have any close friends. all my friends, blessed, were either in PMS,NEDA or BOI. god! i'm so stupid. i felt like a low-life human being all over again. i felt inferior to them because they are smart enough to be put in such big time agencies. all morning i've dedicated my time hating myself for being so stupid and at the same time pitying myself for my situation. argh! i hate this feeling. i feel so left out.then another recurring problem, my lovelife - or the lack of it. my horoscope was not helping either. argh. why did i do what i did to him? now he treats me like some stranger he is kinda acquainted to. para lang akong tuod sa paligid. parang wala lang sa kanyang paningin. i know, i only have myself to blame (again). god. i really am stupid. why was i put in UP again?*sigh* i want to cry but i can't. i am so depressed. all i want to do is sleep, sleep and sleep some more to escape from all the pain i've been feeling. but it's not possible. there are a lot of things to do still. but i really don't feel good. i want to disappear right now.Labels: depressed, emote, lovelife, self-pity
lost and killed 3:23 AM
Sunday, February 18, 2007
last week...
i had to do a lot of things during the past week that's why i failed to write my annual valentine's day sentiments (plus, i had an accident which prevents me use my left index finger properly - that's why it's hard for me to tap the keyboard).
since it's valentine's week, definitely, Wednesday wasn't my best day.hehehe. i just slept the entire day (well after we finished our meeting for 142) so nothing special and/or interesting happened.
tuesday was my best day because it was my UP FAIR day. i had a blast with my friends (Kamille, Jobelle, Ashley, Maan, Kriszia, Janna and Cecil) watching most of my favorite bands play my favorite songs. my favorite part would, of course, be when Bamboo played Mr. Clay and Tatsulok. I also loved in when Spongecola(you rock Yael!) , Callalilly (yes, mahal ko na si Kean), 6cyclemind, Sandwich (ayos ang 'the moves' ni Raymund!), Itchyworms (salamat sa Beer mga tsong!hehehe) and Sugarfree (UP naming Mahal?oh yeah!) played. basta! ang galing talaga nila. The best talaga sila. and the Best din ang UP FAIR! syempre may mga irritating jumping jologs pa rin pero what the heck! basta masaya ako nun.
ok so, thurday naman, mejo aral mode. pero tinatamad ako most of the time. pero something happened sa tambayan which made me doubt my feeling of 'indifference' (again) towards him. kasi naman he was all chummy, and sweet and basically, acting weird that day. and then next day came, sa tambayan pa rin, napag-usapan ang mga bagay na sinabi at ginawa nya the day before (like when he told me na kahit wala akong party sa birthday ko, he would still come to my house). biglang nagkatuksuan na malakas ang kutob nila na special ang pagtingin nya sa akin (take note, nagkampihan sila - at pati si Cris sumama pa; thank you ah.). he cares so much for me daw and everything. pero i still couldn't feel it (or maybe i was, i just wasn't sure and i was afraid to assume). bigla pa nga silang kumanta ng All at Once (the Fray) with distorted lyrics: maybe he wants YOU, maybe he NEEDS YOU. whatever.
basta bahala na si Batman sa mga susunod na araw.
P.S Apps night na ng K1 sa thursday...hmm...ano kaya magandang gawin?Labels: Bamboo, spongecola, the Fray, UP Fair, UP KAISA, weird BB
lost and killed 12:02 AM
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
the isabela trip
Well, i'm back from my two-day stay at the province for feasib work with my groupmates. we had a lot accomplished and of course, a lot of fun.the second day was probably the best for us. for me, it's seeing HIM. i wrote a few days back that i saw pictures of my ex and his wife and i felt bitter. now, seeing him made me feel even BITTER. bitter than ever. not only that he's married but also because i am prettier than the girl! (say anything you want, but seriously i am!) so we were doing a household survey near his place and i badly wanted to be the one to interview him but i was so anxious and paranoid (hey, we had a messy breakup you know) that i could not do it. i badly wanted to see him - to see how he looks like, to see if he still remembers me (god i hope so!). I WANTED TO SEE HIM even just for a few minutes. my wish was granted when we were preparing to ride the tricyle and he passed by but i didn't have the guts to look at him. i couldn't do it. but still i was satisfied because i was able to look at him for like 3 seconds and that was it. argh! i'm so lame.hay... sana talaga in the future i could talk to him and tell him how i feel. i miss him so bad.P.S. i'll talk about the fun i had with my groupmates next time. (i am so bummed right now).Labels: feasib, him, isabela
lost and killed 2:12 PM
Saturday, February 03, 2007
saturday
i didn't feel like going to class today but i did anyway. and when i got home after that i did some housework because our maid is sick and can't get out of bed. so instead her doing chores for us, i was doing chores for her. i cooked for her (yeah i did!) and i cleaned the house (oh well, just the downstairs, my sister did the upstairs). i'm fine with doing all those kasi i only get to do those things when i am at the province. i sort of miss it. hehehe.anyways, because i had been watching all the seasons of f.r.i.e.n.d.s (the best show ever!) i had this feeling of wanting to live in New York city, you know just for the experience and feel of it. Kasi naman they all look so happy and pretty much having fun. Hay... I really think Ross and Rachel and Chandler and Monica have the best love stories. (hmm... i think i have been watching f.r.i.e.n.d.s too much...hehehe). Someone wrote in our logbook, i think it was Karen, that this season is the "break-up" season. Well, i think it's true. Bitterness is all around my house for almost 2 days now because my sister broke up with her boyfriend (that's why i had company while i moped for my failed 143 exam and she does some reminiscing...hehehe). HA! i can't say i'm happy they broke up but i think it would be good for them (plus...i know i won't envy her this vday while she counts her gifts!hahaha... bitter din ako no, matagal na...hehehe!joke). Well at least something is making me excited - our trip to Isabela for our feasibility study. It's work but i think it would be fun considering that i get to go home and take my friends (who are my feasib mates) with me.hehehe. Labels: dvds, feasib, friends, housework
lost and killed 6:52 AM
depressed
today would probably the worst day ever! It's our mid-term exam in PA143 (which is like the most dreaded major subject in the whole of NCPAG) and it was an "all or nothing" exam. Guess what: I GOT NOTHING! I'm not supposed to feel this bad because i have prepared myself long before to fail (in this subject). But it's kind of different now that i actually experienced it. I mean, yeah, i get low exam scores sometimes, but i haven't got NOTHING. I knew that i would fail but it just sucks now that i actually failed! Gosh... i am so depressed right now.
It's the first time that i felt like everything was slipping away - it's the first time i wasn't optimistic (even to a certain extent). i just felt so bad after the exam that i seemed to be lost. well, i know that it's not the end of the world and i was kinda expecting something like this to happen but i realized that even how much and how hard you prepare for something, if it wasn't meant to be successful, then we can't do anything about it.
after the exam i wanted to run away. i wanted to go some place besides my home. but because i still had a lot of things to do, i can't go anywhere and i just had to deal with it. It was a good thing my sister bought me some chocolates (i told her i was sad and she said she also was so we both indulged). when i got home, i didn't do anything academic at all: i just sat there on the couch and watch the entire 5th season of F.R.I.E.N.D.S. it never fails to make me laugh and so at least i got time off to forget about that disastrous exam.
hay... it sucks that i am depressed and it sucks that i still have a lot to think of.
I want to sleep the entire day tomorrow but i need to go to my PA146 class (but i probably can't concentrate there either so...i don't know. bahala na).
Labels: comfort food, friends, PA143
lost and killed 12:27 AM
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
KAISA
Well, today was the UP KAISA (Kalipunan ng mga anak ng Isabela) orientation. It was so much fun actually considering the fact that i was kind of nervous when i got there. Eh kasi naman, ako pa lang ang app na andun. they were all like asking me questions and stuff. but eventually when people were coming in, i easily felt like i belonged. it was like being in a new home but you feel connected to the people there. I thought it was like being in Pagdu where people are used to being noisy and cracking jokes and making fun of each other.hahaha.well, not really. pero parang ganun na rin.hehehe.
Anyway, the people were so nice. I didn't feel out of place or anything (you know, like the way you feel when you're around people you meet for the first time). They had this cool way of orienting - like a talkshow of some sort.hehehe. Kuya Chalk and Azi hosted it. It was like watching some of my friends do their stand-up-comedian thing.hehehe.
PLUS! The best part of today was, i would have to say, when i met this really cute guy who is a member of KAISA and guess what? He went to the sister school of my school in highschool! Wohoo! That's one thing we have in common.hahaha! the salettinian blood!wohoo! It was great. I actually can't count how many times I stared at him...hehehe. I just hope he didn't notice. Good thing he was all chummy and nice (which makes him even more likable!gosh!). hehehe. i'm like in highschool all over again.hahaha.
New friends (naks!): Ate Chut, buddy Yani, Mikhail, Walter, Kuya Albert, Ate Kat, Kuya JR, Kuya Chalk, Azi, Rhine, Pam, Kat, Karla, Nan, Val,JV, Ren and Rea.Labels: cute guy, salettinian blood, UP KAISA
lost and killed 7:29 AM
Saturday, January 27, 2007
gk build and bitches....
Finally, it was my 2nd build today (and I'm down to my last 3!).
It was a lot of fun kasi i knew almost all people who were there. Considering na it was supposed to be painstaking, i actually enjoyed it kasi it became more of a bonding session rather than a construction work.
People i knew who were "Rosita" (that's what we say sa PanPil17 instead of 'Present' pag nagro-roll call si Ma'am Salanga) sa build:
- Maan
- John
- Angel
- Cecille
- Jong
- Cat
- Ian
- Darcee
- Flory
- Jubai
- Arvi
- Angelita
- TJ
- Toj
- Jem (the GK girl)
- Dean Brillantes (of course!)
The Dean laughed at our jokes.hehehe. And Flory even had that 'scrapbook' moment with him.hahaha!
The best part would probably be when I got to ride on the Dean's car...wohoo! hehehe. He was really really nice and really approachable. Thanks Dean! Sa uulitin! hehehe...
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Now for the Bitches part...hehehe!
Given that i was alone at home after i arrived from the build, i got to watch a few episodes of Princess Hours. The story gets even better and better as it progresses. But one thing is just unforgivable: Monique or Minxiaolin. Gahd! I hate her character! She's such a bitch! She's like one of those girls who i would never talk to. She's like that girl in highschool - the bitch who accused me of stealing her boyfriend (like duh!). hahaha! Basta, i hate her guts, i hate her! She's a bitch! She's a lose! hahaha... good thing she is hated in the story na din...hahaha! spoiler!
Oh well... gotta go bitches! I'm outta here!Labels: megabuild, princess hours
lost and killed 11:36 PM
Friday, January 26, 2007
'how to save a life'
I love this song. It's such a sad song and yet i feel attached to it.
sung by The FrayStep one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life Labels: grey's anatomy ost, song
lost and killed 10:25 PM
"Life is like a box of chocolates, you'll never know what you're gonna get"
- Forrest Gump
"Real love is when you love someone without asking for anything in return. It's when even a passing smile can make your day, a small pat on the back can make you feel alive and the mere sound of his/her voice can move you to break out into a song inside.
Real love isn't fate nor is it written in the stars. You , yourself, have to make love happen. It's a choice; a commitment that you stand up for. And even if you're uncertain if he'she loves you back, you take the risk of facing whatever pain that would come your way simply because you believe he/she is worth everything and more."